I want to be happy and content but I’ve got so many things happening and I can’t handle all of them, everything that I do is for someone else,
And don’t get me wrong, I love that, I love being there for people. I just for once, I want the people I care for, to care for me like I do them
It sounds super selfish but when you spend all your time on others you don’t leave anything for yourself. Gah, it’s dumb at best.
I just want to be appreciated, yeah people say I’m great but I feel like I am making the effort.
I don’t really know how to explain it, i feel lonely in the fact that I know that if I suddenly disappeared, pretty much everyone (bar one or two) wouldn’t care.
That’s how I feel anyhow.
I’m happy for other people, I care for everyone.
And then I have no idea what I’m doing for myself, I’m so lost, I can see all the pieces but I have no idea how they fit together
Maybe you are
Bit of both really.
I’m not a selfish person so yeah